usa: cheese! spain: whiskey!

i never was much of a camera person. i didn't like carrying it around because i was always too lazy to take pictures. however, since i've been in madrid, i've posted 10 albums so far on facebook. o_0 wowsers.

i'm pretty picky with my pictures. if it's blurry (unintentionally) or if the composition, angle, or the lighting doesn't seem right to me, i'll delete it. it usually takes several tries to get a good picture. out of all the pictures i take, i delete about half of them~~ it's good because with bad pictures, i can distinguish which are good pictures.

this is something i forget all the time. i need mess ups. drafts. the bad. they lead to the good! it's a process. i forget this when i'm drawing or writing music. i expect the best at the snap of a finger, and it doesn't happen. then, i get frustrated and give up. tsk tsk tsk.

same goes for my walk with God. one of the biggest challenges in my relationship with God is that it is a process. i like to-do lists. i like crossing things off to-do lists. unfortunately for me, God and me don't work this way. i can't cross off patience or love. these are things i need to work on all the time. and things i think i've crossed off already come back and bite me in the butt. for example, who knew accepting God's love could be so hard?

the simple and the most fundamental things are the hardest to understand and easiest to forget. maybe He planned it this way so that i never take those things for granted, and He can reiterate His love for me.

i'm realizing this post might not make sense. :)